Confessions of a would-be blogger.

Oh, I am remiss. It has been ages since my last blog post, and being recently inspired by my, dare I say favorite niece, I came here to post something today. Today, of all days. The longest day of the year. Summer Solstice. Strangely, I find myself without much, and dichotomously too much to say. I'm sunburned, sated and serene. All very rare states of being for me. The cabin (current locale) does that to a person. In fact, I've run the gamete of emotions these last, few, precious days I've had to myself. Introspection is a frightening prospect; revealing and elusive at the same time (funny, another dichotomy. What am I? A walking contradiction?). My current mission: to find, define, embrace and personify lasting happiness whilst doing away with the rest of the noise in my head. Wish me luck. Live long and prosper.

Um.....one month

Alls I know is, it's been far too long since my last blog post. Alas, I must retreat to slumber for now but know, dear Blog, you are not forgotten.

Big decisions tomorrow. One month to a little D-day of my own......

Life is taking too long......tempus fugit.

Did you ever just want to stop? Stop working, stop cleaning, stop being nice, stop trying so f-ing hard?? Or maybe just divert, completely, like a 180? Sigh. Time just keeps ticking away. It doesn't have the slightest inclination of ceasing, even just to wait for me; wait until I catch up, until I accomplish all of those "things". Nope. It just keeps on ticking. And why, amid the perpetual inevitability, must I be a slave to my emotions? What a colossal waste of time. Now there is your irony!

Could life get any better? I submit that it cannot!

Awash with happiness of unknown origin, I trailed my infinitely handsome and talented son and husband up the Great Western Trail, dog in tow. Surrounded by greens and blues and hues from every spectrum, we chatted while jaunting, collectively releasing the worries of the week, pausing periodically for Zero to quench her thirst. At the right point, we stopped, snapped pictures, then turned and ran, single file back to the bottom to then be whisked away by both carriage and song (thank you Porcupine Tree). The journey ended with a gluttonous feast of ethnic glory and naps all around.

Just have to make a note for posterity: My very talented and handsome son, Miles, played with his band, Quaran"teen" last night at Pat's BBQ in SLC. They rocked the house! Standing room only, cheering like crazy! I'm so proud of him. He is more talented than he will ever know. Aren't we all? Miles, I love you. You are the light of my life. XOXOXO

Old Long Since.....

Absence makes the blog-viewers fonder, right? Ok, so it's been a while since my last post. Perhaps I haven't been 'inspired' lately. Ah, well, tis a new year complete with all the requisite reflections and projections as well as the lofty goals and promises soon to be denied. Why the pessimism you ask? It's not, actually. I am, at my very core and frequently much to my own chagrin, a Realist. And by Realist, I mean, Clairvoyant. I know things are going to happen (or not) before they do. Do I base that on experience? Well, of course! In any event, I've never been one for New Year's Resolutions so it suffices to say, I will ponder the imminent future, mull over potential ideas for change and reflect on the past, vowing to make this a better year than last. Last one my be hard to top, however. I will say, in a rare moment of sentimentality and sappiness, that I am more grateful than ever for my truly good friends and my loving family. I am a lucky girl! Happy New Year to you all (cynic alert: As if anyone reads this)! If you know me, then I love you!

Happy August

It has been hot this summer; 90's-100's for the last several weeks. The dog days of summer are upon us for sure! The time when "seas boil, wine turns sour, dogs grow mad and all creatures become languid" I have been especially enamored with the heat this year, more so than in years past. I want to be basking in it like a cold-blooded reptile! It pleases me and brings a smile to my face as I linger and languish in the sultry feeling while a heated breeze washes over me like a soft blanket. 

Miles starts high school next week and so here I am, facing the inevitable end of summer. I get a sense of urgency while trying to slow it all down and attempt to defy time, resenting it and being ever so reluctant to prepare for fall; cramming in swim days, outdoor activities, BBQ's, and drive-in movies in hopes that I am left with no regrets of time wasted. 

Fall has always been my favorite season but only after I have relinquished my hold on summer. Fall means a harvest, a turning of all things green to gold, amber, burnt umber and brick red. It also means my birthday is looming......sigh........which usually  means a re-evaluation of goals and a reflection upon things accomplished. I don't want to do this but I know myself well enough to know that I will anyway.

But........it is only yet Aug 18th. The temperature will rise to 94 degrees today. Need I say more?